Re: "If I had my time again...."
Yes, if I knew then what I know now there are a few pretty major things I would do differently.
Or would I?
I'm not the same person now as I was even ten years ago, let alone twenty or thirty or forty years ago, so maybe, as others have said, I did what was best for me at the time.
Plus, I suppose, the experiences that my choices led to, for better or worse, have made me the person I am now.
Sometimes making rough choices and suffering the consequences is empowering.
However, there are two radical choices I made that I would definitively change, as they felt so very wrong at the time, but I still went ahead with them, with very long-lasting consequences.
One involved a relationship, and one involved a major change of location, and I am still living with the horrible consequences of both decisions.